Bonjour mes amis de Senior High!
I am sorry to add a sadder (yes, that's right, SADDER) note to this oh-so-happy blog, but I really need prayer right now. I always feel incredibly guilty in asking people to pray for me because I know that I, myself, am very unfaithful when it comes down to it. I tell my friends that I'll "definitely pray for you" and I never end up being as consistant as I had hoped to be. HOWEVER, this time I have decided that, despite people who can perhaps easily relate to me, I will send out a request and hope that somebody will respond. I mean, SOMEBODY must have the gift of prayer out there.
I have been even more stressed than usual over the past little while and I am lost for solutions. Many of you, I know, are struggling with school as the end of the year grows closer. Teachers are piling it all on. I have found it increasingly difficult to concentrate at school and at home, and it has really affected how much work I actually get done, so that hasn't been all that helpful either. Portfolio is yet another thing I haven't had time for, despite my efforts, and I have no idea how I am ever going to finish it by November.
I have also been recruited to the "Les Mis Team". The world of drama has had a huge lack of people to do important jobs behind-the-scenes, so I have become the new Stage Carpenter (a misleading title, as I do not MAKE anything-- my job is to be the boss for everything to do with the set for the play-- the second largest job backstage! eek! :S). Although I am super excited for this new endeavour, all free time I ever had is now lost. It's a serious committment so I will be there pretty much everyday, excluding Saturdays, for the next three weeks. I would be fine with everything to do with it, except that my mom isn't so happy. Today was my first day as Head Grip, and I came home to an argument about how this decision I made wasn't what she thought it would be. I've been getting nothing but guilt trips over missing so much time at home (we'll be having a Mother's Day rehearsal unfortunately), and I really don't want problems with my parents because of this. HOWEVER, I had already talked it over with my mom, and she agreed to everything, so I don't know what else to do. I am hoping things will heal over there so that I don't have to let everyone on crew down.
This summer is another thing I've been starting to worry about. I had it all planned out before this week: I was going to go to Staff Training at Qwanoes immediately after exams, come home to get my N license, go to summer school for Chem 11 while working at the doctor's office in Ladner, spend a week with my family in Disneyland, and go to Qwanoes for the last two weeks of August. HOWEVER, after talking to our counselor, I found out that Chemistry 11 may not run this summer because there may not be enough people to take the course. Now, summer school was the only reason I rejected my initial plan of oversea missions. That was what I REALLY wanted to do. Then, when I found out that I would need to take Chemistry 11 and 12 for university, I thought God might have been opening a window for me to spend some time in Tsawwassen and serve in more local ministries. But NOW I don't know WHAT I am supposed to do! I kind of see this as a trus-issue, because my summer was all perfectly set out for me, and now God might be shaking things up a bit to make sure I'm still putting my trust in HIM and not my own plans. Hmm, we'll see where this goes.
Anyways, those are some of the main things. I'm sorry for writing so much, but I would really love it if even just ONE of you could pray for me! Please pray that God will give me some major strength to get through the end of the year and that He'll help me to prioritize so that I do what's most important. Also pray for the whole Les Mis thing and direction for the summer. Thanks guys! I appreciate it so much.
Love Tara
